Hot tub arrived and I'm uber excited! Handy man is coming over Sunday to check out the electrical for it. He was super sad to hear of the D. Great guy. He's a dad like guy and good person for me to know as I'm trying to live in this house alone. I was able to troubleshoot some cable issues last night by myself and that felt pretty good.
My little guy had a rough week but it seems to be getting better. He actually cried and chased his dad down the drive one night. It's painful. I let WH come to his gymnastics class tonight but told him I didn't want to speak to him. He honored that. I sent him a note this week and said I had no intentions of being his friend. For him, that's his cake eating and I don't want any part of it. He screwed my family over with this affair and expects me to be the way his ex W was and be his friend. This is uncomfortable for him and unfamiliar territory.
I'm not going to lie, I looked good tonight. New pants that fit (size 5 - I was an 8 the last time he really saw me), a nice sweater and cute belt.
I'm not sure I belong on this site anymore. I don't know what I saw in him. I'm happier than I've been in a very long time. I realize now that he's gone how critical he was of me and how that effected me. He burnt some old movies for me and in nearly every one he was in, I was happy go lucky and he was yelling at me for something. I know he watched these movies too. I wonder if he noticed it. I was always such a fun loving person and he beat that out of me. People around me are commenting that the old LH is finally back. I find it interesting that, while he was the one that beat it out of me, it was one of his biggest complaints about me....that I wasn't fun loving anymore and became negative. I sort of feel that OW will eventually be there too. He did the same thing to his ex W.
I finally like who I am again and I couldn't/didn't know who that was until he was gone.
