Going Dark, Gaining Strenght

[JinBK]

Edmond, I thought about that a lot today - letting go. I vent much less than I used to. I don't have to call someone every night to bitch. I can actually have other types of conversations.

I went to yoga class tonight for the first time in years. It is something I had been meaning to get back into, and something H really was trying to encourage me to do as well. So, it was somewhat bittersweet. It is also one of the reasons he gave me for wanting the separation. I know, it's a false reason, but he got me where it hurt there.

But it was a good thing to do. My body will hurt, but it is something I needed to do - to get out there!

I am trying to keep busy and be the best me I can. I don't know when I stopped doing that.