From reading your sitch, it seems to me that you have looked outside yourself for feelings of reassurance, self-worth, and happiness -- whether from your husband, "internet friends," or otherwise. I understand this and am not judging you. I know it and have been there. We all know it hurts to be "left behind."
BUT, what are YOU going to do today to try to be responsible for your own happiness? To start a better chapter for SoA? I understand you are in pain. How can you refocus your mind? How has the gym been going? How is your room shaping up? Whose the last friend you talked to/went out for a _______ with? What's the latest book you read or movie you saw? What's the last thing you made/did with your hands?
Re: the counselor, I think Steve McQ was saying it was HEALTHY when you wrote that you do not want to be with someone who does not want to be with/love you, and if the counselor has helped get you to that conclusion, then that was a good thing.
Me-53 W-49 D22,D18,D15 T-Since-12/2001 Married-9/2004 She Moved Out-5/28/2010 Piecing start-04/2011 Now-together Thread http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2079304
