Yes, I`m strong enough now and know the signs and patterns. And know my jumping into the fear place too fast and not loving myself anyhow, were part of what allowed H to be abusive.
So yeah, different position on that one now.
And yes, he has made great strides in the past few months.
I felt like hugging him yesterday so I asked if he minded if I did. I have no idea if that was proper DB protocol but honestly, I`m digging into my heart and my feelings more for answers nowadays and it seemed just right to me. H was glad and surprised at the same time.And thankful too.
I can`t remember when the last hug was. Over a year ago anyhow.
And God only knows where we`re headed but something is healing.
Hmmm, yes, but I do want to avoid the deep end, Cat.I think a lot of H`s efforts come from his fear of going to court. If I back out of legal separation I may well get old H back. So yeah,I`m still wary.
