If suggests you're still putting up with this crap, If suggests you're still hanging in there waiting for her to change, If suggests that you're not moving on, If suggests that you're not decisive
Stop the "if's", be decisive, just make a decision and go with it, you'll be surprised how well this skill translates into other areas of your life.
Just do it. No "if's", No trying, No in-between indecisiveness.
2 options: Just DO it, or don't do it.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712