Well lets see what the problems may be. 1.you hook up with a guy that most likely really cares less about you and is a drunk and a loser. 2. you hastily move out of our house taking 2 dogs to a little apt near what you think is shangrala!! 3. Your job piles new work on you with the state which is always a mess. I would know I worked in Tallahassee 9 yrs. 4. Your pleaseing your S by staying with this clown (if that's true its really messed up!) 5.You may lose your H forever if you keep this crap up because I am getting stronger and your falling apart.
5.You LOST your H forever if BECAUSE you KEPT this crap up.
"If you keep this crap up".... If suggests you're still putting up with this crap, If suggests you're still hanging in there waiting for her to change, If suggests that you're not moving on, If suggests that you're not decisive
Stop the "if's", be decisive, just make a decision and go with it, you'll be surprised how well this skill translates into other areas of your life.
Just do it. No "if's", No trying, No in-between indecisiveness.