Saw things clearer once you're in my rearviewmiror

[ImprovedRomeo]

Jeff, the 24+ hr downpour was brutal but we could always use the water here. It's tapering off now so get ready

K, thanks for the well wishes. Our worlds have already been rocked and rolled on, luckily mine's springy

Kerry, yes it sucks. Well we'd made them a settlement offer and they never bothered to reply by the indicated deadline. So it's going to turn nasty which is fine by me except it'll waste more money that neither her nor I nor DD will get to have. That's the part that bothers me the most. But she's never managed to save a dime, doesn't know what it takes to save up etc all she sees is a big fat check getting written to her name. She's clueless about how 10s of thousands of dollars are going into the L's pockets.

You know I was drooling over some cool motorcyles online...and then I went, F*ck! I could've bought 2 of those cool bikes with the money I've already forked over to the Ls. Not that I would waste money it was never my style but lately I want something, a change, a passion- something to put my energy into and feel good/satisfied with life.

I have my to-do list; people I want to go visit, things I want to do, things I need to do etc but I just wait and wait as if by magic my life will one day be in order and I'll start working the list. I have to just do a lot of these things but at the end of the day it all comes down to finances and when I have no idea what's mine and what isn't it's hard to start writing checks or taking big steps in life. So the limbo sucks but I need to be mindful that even when the divorce is done my life won't automatically become different/desirable the next day, it won't end the struggles in life. It'll merely be a clean start without the ball and chain dragging me down.

Sometimes I just want to show the finger to the world, find a long lonely highway and just ride off on a screaming fast bike- destination unknown or non-existent.

IR <--- rebel