Thank you soooo much friends. I have come a long way, but because of your support and help!!!
I finished my rebuttle. I remembered that once he told me that police phone calls would be useful to him during a divorce. Well, he has them, and he used them.
I am not innocent. I fought back when abused. Of course I did that and he calls me crazy.
And I was. Thank god I"m getting saner. I wrote a response to every account he laid out and showed how it was not one way. I also recounted plenty of crap he did to me during our marriage.
I feel relieved that I have overcome one fear. I kept silent this past year out of fear of him bringing up the police phone calls he made during our arguments. And I get to finally voice what really happened and how awful it was on my end and for my son.
Who knows what the courts will say. I don't know how seriously they take verbal abuse. But his statement was so full of lies and grandiosity it made my stomach turn. He may not listen to my side or my feelings, but hopefully a judge will. I overcame my fear and put it all on paper according to HOPE!
Hopefully he will get served tomorrow. I got an email from him today saying he wanted to take S from WEd evening through fri afternoon. The lawyer advised me to not respond to him and to not allow him to do so. I can't tell you the relief I finally felt feeling like I did not have to respond and cave to his bullying for once!!! I'm still scared he'll try to take S tomorrow night if they don't serve him. But my dad said he'll be here as back up for H's entire visit (it's usually H's night but he visits at my house and puts S to bed).
There will lots more steps ahead that scare me, but I am feeling stronger and like I deserve to finally have support and be believed that this relationship has been abusive. I have reacted very badly in the past but Rabbit knows how i've worked on ODP and not reacting or blowing up in response to his manipulations, his lies, his meanness, his selfishness.
I finally do have hope - not of my fantasy reconsiliation - but that my son and I will WIN and be protected from years ahead of more abuse and coersion. Pray for me tomorrow and Thursday please. My little boy deserves it!!!!
