I read your posts when i check in, i can see when you are down and when you are more upbeat, i too have those moments. i think the wife is in a sense yanking your chain testing to see if she has control over you and some situations. i'm guilty of doing it myself.
after everything you have gone through it is a true testament to you deciation to your love to this woman, i wish ihad the same. i have seen what is on the other side, i think it is natural to feel you will be alone and i think realistically that should not be your focus. let your dust settle and experience life as a divorced father.
sorry to hear you are having to uproot again, be positive. i can give advice and yet not follow my own.
Me 39 H 30 d 18 previous marriage d 2.5 with H s 4.5months with H Seperation Nov09 july i'm dim to dark - set internal deadline