Ok, i thought i was really angry, but now im not. I read robx's thread today and now i absolutely get it. Its hard to convince yourself of anything when you still have one foot in the door thinking that things might be ok. After looking at all the records I asked myself how could i be with someone like that. I wasnt perfect, but i did a lot of damn good things for my wife. So after coming to this conclusion i sent her a text telling her to stay away from me, dont write, call, text etc. Of course I get a call not 30 secs. later from her that i didnt pick up. She then just sent me a text that says please answer, why cant we talk. I know that anger is still fueling part of these emotions, but indifference is really starting to take over. Im going to bed, thanks everyone for the advice. Tomorrow im starting the rest of my life.
