Morphine and Valium don't wind people up! I think I'm just relieved that this is over. It's been on my mind for a couple of weeks and although I didn't allow myself to dwell on it, it was always back there. It seems in the last year there is ALWAYS something back there! If it's not my Dad's health, it's mine or something else. I've actually been putting off getting a colonoscopy because I was concerned with the fasting (having Adrenal Fatigue I don't respond well to lack of food!) but I've been feeling good and when I found something in the stool that looked like blood I manned up and went to the doctor. As for wife, I don't read anything into what she does. She took the morning off work which I know is difficult for her. She made sure I had something for dinner, which she didn't have to. She is what she is. She has a good heart but she's a screwed up lady in many ways and that's just who she is. I don't think after three years guilt is big on her mind, I think she was just being caring to someone she cares about in whatever way that is. I don't take it as meaningful one way or the other. So, if my playfulness today has you all worried, don't be! I'm just relieved and blowing off a little steam on the BB. Now, my Dad had his appointment today with the surgeon who did his Cancer surgery three years ago. I'll have to see what tests he's going to be sent for, probably a gastroscopy at least. Btw, I just did a half hour meditation so I'm good for a few more hours now!!!
