Ok so heres the back story...we got married 4 years ago. About a year into it we had a son and a year after that we started a long painfull process of buy our 1st home.
During the escrow she and I were living separatly due to issues with having set a move out date at our rental and then escrow went over 80 days and not the 45 days we were promised.
I cheated on her sexually during that time; she found out about it the Monday following Easter of 2009; she and I agreed to work it out and stayed together.
About 4 months ago I answered a w4m ad on craigslist. I didnt initially tell the person that I was married but I did make it clear that I only wanted to be online friends and nothing more.
Last Friday, Oct. 15 she discovered my emotional affair. She is now checking out of the marraige, understandably, and has begun to activly date other men.
Last night I called the OW and told her that I HAD to reconcile and reconnect with my wife and that I couldnt ever talk to her again...I did this in front of my wife.
I thought initially that I only wanted a person to talk to..but in reflecting I am positive that I wanted someone to boost my ego and tell me I was a good person.
My bottom line is that my wife doesnt want to be with me, shes dating other guys and that I DO NOT WANT DIVORCE!
I want to reconnect, reconcile and fall in love with her.
