Maybe it might be better for you to prepare a balance for yourself..

Something in the middle.....???

Life is about perspective, and you are used to one that you admitted to being , sucktastic at times...

Use your knowledge to your advantage...

Want a new perspective at dinner ?

Expect the food to be good, the lighting to suck, the waiter to slip and fall, they play some crappy Rush : O

DO NOT expect anything from her....nothing....

This is part of what you can do for you right now...