WAH - Confused and Depressed

[Lost&Lonely]

Hi NFTP
We haven't got lawyers involved yet and when we do he wants to go the mediation route (he feels lawyers would eat up all the money). I do feel very strongly about the benefits that I should have equal access to them (in one form or another)and when I do consult a lawyer if they say I have a right to them I will fight tooth and nail for them.

But my question right now is should I bring up this with my husband now, and further alienate him while trying to DB?? #1 son is coming home for a week and I have an opportunity to spend quality time with son and H. When sons are not around I have been detaching (thanks Sandi) to try and give him some space.