Hey DB friends! Long time, no talk!! I've been displaced for several weeks but now I'm getting back into a groove... I think... I hope.
I did not end up getting that job. NBD... I'm still applying. I won't give up. Leaves me more time to spend with my mom. Her surgery went well and she'll start chemo next week. She's a triple negative so the chemo will bump her survival rate to 72%. She's got some back pain and seems to be struggling emotionally, but she's doing everything right. She's doing physical therapy and regular massages for the back and seeing a therapist for the emotional stuff.
My brother in law is a police officer and was shot in the hand last week pursuing a suspect. He'll be alright but it was an added stress we all didn't need. My sister is handling everything very poorly. She's freaking out over the silliest stuff. I'm trying to get her to see a therapist.
I think at the end of this year I'm going to get my family t-shirts that say "I survived 2010." From Divorce to deaths, cancer and gunshot wounds... I keep asking God what more he has in store for my family. Haven't we been through enough? I guess it's not me to choose. I am grateful that it didn't all happen at the same time. He allowed my marriage to end before my mom discovered her cancer, he allowed us to get through her surgery before my brother in law got shot... I'm just ready for the year to end.
You'd all be proud of me though. It's been almost a month since I saw/spoke to my exH. He's e-mailed several times and I have NOT responded. I never did give him my phone number so he can't call. I'm feeling good about it. I'm glad I fought for us because I have the closure I needed. I'm glad to be free of it too.
As for the work guy that I hooked up with... we've decided to stay friends, but that's it. It felt good and we had a good time together, but that is all it can be. I'm home with my family and its my turn to be strong. Whatever the next few months bring... I can handle it.
Hope all is well with all of you!
When you are happy as an individual, you are in a better position to determine whether a partner enhances your happy life or weighs it down.
