PEI....I felt like you were talking about me. That is how I have felt about everything! That voice you talk about is just a whisper with me and I have been telling it to shut up for so long.
Thank you for sharing
The digging you are talking about will help you fight that monster. IMO, you can't just kill the voice, you have to kill the monster who uses it. The insecurity, codependancy, fear etc.
But I do think it can be killed, by fighting those battles and doing the work. Sure, you can just keep telling it to be quiet, and trying to ignore it, but that only works when you are actually conscious of it. I say grab your battle gear and meet that f*cker head on ...
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
