V1olin's new life without wife #2

[v1olin]

Yes, well, I did not know at the time that she was activly looking for dates on match.com! But, I guess I was too! lol The whole thing rubs me the wrong way. There is so much information that I have not written here on this site. I was not on here for about 2 months, maybe 3? Things were getting better between us, talking for an hour on the phone, 50 texts back and forth during Colts football games, etc. No dates though and no time spent together with the kids. I feel like a fool all over again but I did give it my best shot.

I went over to (her)house to drop the kids off about a month ago and she looked terrible. She had a severe cold and had just woke up right before dinner time. I put my arm around her and gently squeezed her shoulder. She laid her head on my shoulder and I gave her a kiss on the side of her head. I stayed and cooked dinner for everyone, cleaned up the mess I made, gave the kids baths, and got them in bed. I thought I could feel that she still loved me, or maybe I was duped? Before I sent her the text about her dating I sent her this text,

"I have loved you through all the sh!t that we have been through together-including divorce."

Then I started going dark again and that is how I will stay.