Thank you Antonia for your VERY wise words! Everything you said is dead on.

Thank you also Frank and Two - for the support.

No contact is right around the corner for me. It's hard with kids. H kept contacting me yesterday and I am definitely seeing the Jekyll and Hyde. One minute he was blasting me the next he was talking about wanting to try to work things out if I was willing to sit down with the kids and truly hear everything I had done wrong as well as what he had done too. The boys did not want to. I have discussed with them over and over all my wrongs. They have forgiven me and they don't see anything I've done as a marriage killer. They see what he has done as being one though.

My college daughter is so confused...I feel terrible for her. She took H's call yesterday and then ended up more hurt because of course, there's a large part of her that just wants her daddy back.