Yes, I did mean chills in a good way. When I read the way you write about her it makes me feel sad because I can tell you really loved her. Sorry if I didn't articulate that the right way...
Sometimes I think we romanticize our partners/idealize them but the reality is that they were flawed and sometimes you look back and you think: gosh we really didn't have that one thing in common, or that other thing, etc. It's interesting.
