feelings as OW seems to be on way out

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Cagz, that was good advice. I did opt not to say anything to New Guy as this has been an emotional time. I may say something to him later on, when I feel less stirred up. Already I am feeling less stirred up, and I am in fact starting to get annoyed w/X as I feel that X will take advantage of me if he can.

As it is, I feel that the R w/New Guy has progressed slowly--partly for practical reasons as it is hard for us to get together because of time issues. That is probably a good thing for both of us right now.

However, I do note that OW is back at least for a while; I guess I should not make the assumption that she is out of the picture, although I wish to heck she would disappear from X's life altogether so she doesn't have the influence on D that she does.

ILs--I realized I feel a certain need to have their interest and approval. I am thinking that I need to get over that as well. This situation stirred up some feelings on my end as having them treat me as they did hurt my feelings some, given that I had not seen them in some years.

So many people have been hurt.