Took girls and two friends to popular haunted hayride. 2 1/2 hours until we actually got on the hay. Cold. Girls were hungry. Hard to keep them entertained. Normal parent crap.
I wavered between -- it'd be nice to share this time with STBXW -- to thanking God she wasn't there because we never really handled them well together in public. She'd like them to be the perfect kids in line, yes mother, yes father, you know the type.
I know they'll never be like that. Too much energy for D8 especially and too little attention span. As long as they don't annoy others I'm OK. I want to pick my battles and there were a lot I could have picked last night.
Dreams. Two weird ones. First, I love baseball and I dreamed I was a major league player and Andre Dawson -- Andre Dawson -- was wearing my number and batting for me in a game. Side note, my number was 11, which was Barry Larkin's number, my favorite player. Dawson got a hit then Jay Bruce from my Cincinnati Reds got a hit to win the game and I was sitting in the dugout marveling that I was finally a major league player.
In my whole life, I have not had a dream like that. Damn 41-year-old bladder woke me up from that one.
Got back to sleep and dreamed that STBXW went with me to that big surprise birthday party I went to two weeks ago. We were walking around, looking at the house, not really talking to anyone, just spending time together.
That's kind of how our social life was. When we would be invited to things or go out, we'd hang back, not really get involved with others. STBXW always looked to me to jump in and introduce myself, but I'd hang back because I wasn't always sure she really wanted to get involved.
Got the girls to church today. It was D11's first day as a volunteer in the Sunday School program so she was excited.
Lady from my divorce rebuilding class showed up at the same time so we sat together. Church_31 sat two rows in from of us ... with her boyfriend. They are a cute couple.
Sermon today was on faithfulness, the story of Hosea and Gomer. It was a tough one because Hosea is instructed by God to love Gomer even after she's committed adultery with many, many men.
I was listening to it wondering if the message was to love STBXW forever and always believe I was the perfect one for her.
Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11 http://tinyurl.com/yk4e2tz http://tiny.cc/thread2 http://tinyurl.com/ydtphqu http://tinyurl.com/thread4 http://tinyurl.com/3sm78k6 http://tinyurl.com/thread6
