Beyond Depression..but still a losing battle?

[Lucky11too]

Thanks. All is going ok, I just feel like I've been on autopilot this week. Work has been extra hectic again, so it's been get up, work, come home, eat, take care of S, sleep...and then the same next day. I haven't been sleeping very well either, so that has been leaving me extra tired. I think it has somewhat to do with H, just thinking about everything. Things are going smoothly (for now, until his next breakdown) and he's asked me to come to lunch a few times at the new place (one day I could and other day I couldn't). Besides lunch tho, I haven't seen him much this week or weekend. He's been working crazy hours (which is good as idle hands seem to find their way into trouble, but bad b/c no time for us). He's been texting alot and keeping the communication up tho which is good. I guess here is a breakdown of things on my mind. 1) Priorites - will he ever make us a priority? Yes, making a living is important but so is time with family. His dad missed out on his childhood b/c he worked all the time and H kind of resents him for that...but now's he's doing the same thing to S! 2) The fear of reconciling but being back on these boards in a year or two. I keep seeing people's signature lines where they say "reconciled" at some date only to say "spouse filed" or some other bomb in the future (Awest-I know you said your friend went thru the same thing). So it's like how do you know if it's real? So I'm definitely just going along with life right now, but I just can't help to have some things on my mind...