Journaling:

Synopsis of the weekend so far:

Picked-up the kids from school on Friday and had to stop by W's again to get their "stuff". I was on the phone with a friend the entire time. Kids ran in, came back out and Mom followed. They put their stuff in the car, she said goodbye to them and we left.

Kids played video games and then D and I ran out to grab some take-out. On the way, we stopped and looked at the house we may be moving to. It is a brand new, 3 br, raised ranch that is pretty nice and only 4 miles from our current house. After dinner D and I played scrabble while S continued to play video games. It is just about all he wants to do.

Sat morning we had D's soccer game. Since I had the kids, I got there first and stood with some other parents. W showed-up shortly after the game started and set-up her chair next to me. She said hi to S, but not me. When D came off the field, I walked to the other side to talk to her about her play and S tagged alond, leaving W alone. I have spent some time on the sideline with the coach, so I stayed on the opposite side of the field. We were responsible for snacks, so we stopped before the game and got some. I left them next to W's chair. She texted me to ask if we brought them and I didn't answer. She came over partway through the 2nd half and asked if we had brought them. I said, "yes, they are next to your chair." When game was just about over, I sent S to get them. Handed them out after the game and I asked W if she wanted one. "No". D questioned her and she said that she had a doughnut yesterday. Worrying about what she eats and walking all the time have her looking like a skeleton with loose skin on it. Walked towards the cars together and she said goodbye to the kids when we left. She didn't address me and I didn't address her either.

Had S's soccer 1.5 hours later, so went and got groceries in between. I got to S's game first and stood at midfield where we always set-up. No other parents from our team were there. W showed-up and set up halfway down the line from me. A reaction to me leaving her alone on the other sideline at D's game? She had an extra chair, so D went and sat by her. Another mom finally showed up and sat by W. She asked how I was doing and although I said good, she said I didn't sound convincing. Guess I need to be more upbeat in the future. Last week I was telling one of the dads about all of the fun I have been having and said "I just can't stop partying!" Left the game and W said goodbye to the kids. I didn't say anything to her again.

Kids and I stopped for lunch, took the groceries home and then left for the apple orchard to pick apples. Unfortunately, they were done for the season, so we just bought some cider. We all stopped at the new house again so S could see it. This time we took a walk through the 8 acre woods that are owned by the landlord. There is a small pond that has frogs in it, but I'm not sure about fish. Apparently the neighbor shovels the pond and uses it for ice skating, which could be fun in the winter. The kids are fired-up about playing in the woods! They like the house too, so that is good.

After that, we went to a local state park and did some hiking. This is a 6,000 acre park where a lot of hunting is done. We walked to a couple of duck blinds to look around and saw a pheasant running around. He tried to hide, but we flushed him out and her flew out over the pond. The kids thought that was pretty cool!

Went home and kids played games while I cooked dinner. I cut up some venison into steaks. I used 2 different seasoning and the kids LOVED it! They said that I cook better than Mom. I don't, and I told them that, so they said, well, just as good as Mom. That made me feel pretty good. I even got the kids volunteering put their own dishes in the dishwasher now!

After dinner, we all played a game together and then I did some laundry. In the morning, the kids asked if there was more venison, so we cooked-up some more for breakfast! I'm also making a roast on the grill for dinner.

Kids are now carving pumpkins and D is finishing-up a project for school. Mom texted D a few times yesterday and today to ask what we were up to and sent her a picture of one of the cats. Maybe she is lonely.

Time for football now, so I gotta run.

I'm just wondering if I should be making more small talk with W at these events or if I should just keep going on about my business as if she really isn't even there. The longer this goes on, the more I look back and think that she had this all planned out and took advantage of me to get new furniture and clothes before she filed. I don't know what to think or believe anymore. I'd like to have a date, but I've just been so busy that there doesn't even really seem to be time.

Thanks everyone for your support.