Mystik, I completely agree with Abbey. I know it's tough but you can not hang on to that misery and continue doing the negative self talk. Start making those gratitude lists. It sounds crazy, especially when you can't really think of anything, but I started doing it and it has helped. Even if I only do it when I'm feeling down, I've found it helps. How about taking one of those days when your H has DS and doing something special for you?
Me: 24 H: 26 2 SS: 7 & 5; D: 3 H filed D papers: 8/2/10 OW discovered: 08/10 D papers counter-filed: 10/2/10 There is no method to my madness