You said: But it feels like letting go of H means letting go of any hope of him returning. Like if I don't hold on tight now I'll never have him again.
When has that ever worked for anyone? Case after case here... people have had to totally LET GO in order for any HOPE of getting back together with someone. STOP doing the same stuff and expecting a different result.
The rest of it... no matter if it's him or someone else... your JOB is to take care of YOU. You can moan all you want about what was taken away from you.... and trust me... I GET what you are going through.... At some point you HAVE TO GET A LIFE and start working on becoming the person only an idiot wouldn't want to be with. For your own sake... time for us to start punching you in the arm every time you slip off track.
The SOONER you get the legal junk done the better, you're holding on tight to not only the hope but now also you're holding on to the misery this has been giving you. I realize it feels that it's the only thing left... but the BEST thing you can do LET IT GO.
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T:22, M:20 H:55 Me:45 H-OW PA: N/07 OW Jan08 Bomb:Feb/08 S: Apr/08 Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11 Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess. Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.
