Pearl, re: why I wasn't that way before. Combination of many factors -- personal failings, failure to control self, failure to respect boundaries, self-indulgence, selfishness, insecurity, depression, my own resentment/anger/hurt from her previous CB. After the bomb, I looked at myself in the mirror, Pearl, and saw the ugliness that she saw and felt and have worked hard to try to improve myself.
I unfortunately cannot time travel to undo my actions. In terms of "doing," I had been thinking what can I DO to make the new me more appealing and less hurtful to her? But, I totally agree with your correction. I am not responsible for her perception of me or her feelings about me. Those are hers, and I should not seek to control them. I yam what I yam.
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