That's a great idea to join a gym. I run 3 miles everyday with my dogs and I have a new friend that I play tennis with a couple of times a week. Just keep busy and stay close to God and take care of you and your kids. Try not to think about the craziness of WAS. Don't let their addictions cause chaos for you and your kids.You didn't cause it and you can't cure it. I try to let go and let god. Make sure to try to eat healthy and get plenty of sleep too. I went and played tennis tonight and it made me feel a lot better being around good people.