I use to hit my hard hat on the pavement to get that worn look. I also applied some axle grease to my cheeks and forehead to achieve that masculine look.
W showed some CB last night. The story is too stupid to post so I won't.
However I can say that through her actions she was self serving hypocrite, took advantage of my good behavior, misled me (did not lie though) and broke the promise she made just hours before.
So I'm mad. Mad at her for what she did, mad at myself for looking for her excuse, mad that she had that setback.
She knows I'm watching. She failed.
I calmly called out her crap this morning over a coffee. She did not argue, dispute or respond.
I walked out and now enjoying my day alone.
I will have a smile on my face when I see her later this evening and I will not repeat a word that I have already conveyed to her.
To eliminate my boredom yesterday, I went out and bought myself a new car. Traded in my midlife crisis sportster and got something more fitting with my new goals.
She was home when I arrived but did not see the car. I said nothing to her about it.
She was seemingly wondering if I was still angry about Friday and said "What happened yesterday will not happen again."
I guess it was a form of apology. I smiled and told her that Friday is now past and today is a new day. She smiled back and said "One day at the time for now, right?"
I said, yes.
After awhile I said, "I bought something that you will compliment while we are out in town."
She was puzzled. I told her to get ready and that Im taking her to dinner.
While things are generally good and slowly progressing I have no tolerance left if CB.
I have to be careful for not turning into controlling. I have gained lot of confidence that I can bring up issues that I don't agree with whereas just months ago I would have gotten my head bit off for that.
I have been calling out CB and setting new boundaries. Surprisingly W is cooperating and working with me on that. Every once awhile she slipps back and I have to put my foot down again.
Strangely I actually have to force myself to do this because often it is not a big deal.
Last night she blew me off for a previously scheduled dinner date. I actually sent her a text telling her that I'm giving her a cake and that she is eating it too and I will stop that.
That prompted a phonecall back which I did not answer. Shortly after she texted that she is on her way and will stop to take-out some food. Asked what I would like.
I did not answer, got up and left the house before she got home.
She was still up when I returned with bunch of stuff sitting on the stove. She got up and started warming things up.
I looked at her and said "If you are doing it for me I appreciate it, but I already ate, thanks." and I went to bed.
Moments like that make me think what I want from this R. Do I want to continue to work on it? The progress has been amazing and I know that there is a way to go and more time to spend.
I have to take a serious look at my expectations. Too much of that will turn me back into a person she began to hate.
Hey pookie, funny, I don't see you being controlling in this example. I see resentment.
It almost sounds like there's part of the story missing? What do you mean blew you off? Do you mean she stood you up?
If so, why didn't you just tell her that her actions hurt your feelings, rather than texting her what you did? Your interaction with her at the house sounds more like pent-up hurt feelings coming out as resentment and coldness.
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
LOL! You guys crack me up. Thanks for the belly-laugh. I really needed it today. 
