cheated on, lied to, and now I am moving on

[awest1217]

CTH- That is where forgiveness comes into play. I thought for forever if I was kind to H then he would feel what he did was ok, but by reading on forgiveness, I learned I could forgive and be kind, but that does not condone the actions. It just frees me from the jail of bitterness and anger. He will have to live forever with his choices and will always know I think it is wrong, but I can still be kind.

Just remembered because of a friend's FB status that it is sweetest day weekend, which for me means 1 year since H moved out again stating he could tell I had changed, but he hadn't so he needed a few weeks (no more than 5 he said) to work on him and he would be back. It started the worst point for me. It completely destroyed me to work so hard and change so much just to have him reject me again.

The best part is that it doesn't bother me now. The memory is just that and I am not sad. I am ok being me. A friend and I were talking and she said "we need to find you a good guy" I said I am not holding my breath. I am ok with it being just me and S. No prospects anywhere.

Tonight S and I are having a PJ movie night. Tomorrow some raking and outdoor play. Also some resting so we both get back to 100%.