Going Dark, Gaining Strenght

[JinBK]

I ended up simply saying "H cannot have the car"

I realized I already explained that I was going to keep the car because I have no other access to vehicles and he does - his aunt who lives in the house has 2 cars and no one else drives. So, he can borrow hers. To me, there was no other explanation needed.

Had dinner with SIL yesterday. She is extremely upset. I never really realized how dysfunctional WH's family is. I started thinking about all the bad behavior that is tolerated from all the males. Meanwhile, SIL is speaking out saying she doesn't like OW coming to the house and they are telling her she has to straighten out her attitude.

I gave her a bunch of WH's stuff that he left in the car or I found amongst things that I took when I moved. I gave him back his HS ring - I found it at MIL's house a few years ago and I liked to wear it for fun sometimes. To me, it felt a little symbolic to give it back to him.

I am finally feeling a sense of calm most of the time. I have had time to reflect on what I want. I don't know what my future holds, but I do know what I won't accept anymore.