Eric, thank you for your kind words. Thank you for making me feel a little bit better (well, after I cried some more, lol) I think Im just afraid of letting go. After holding on for so long, its hard. The rope has grown attached I guess, lol.
Im thinking alot about the codependant stuff. I need to work on that. Im always afraid of making my H mad by what I say or do. Its a habit I gotta break. Standing up for me.
Learning to live MY life for ME.
I have stayed busy for the most part today. Lots of questions from my H. He wants to know what Im thinking. How Im feeling, etc. I told him I miss him. Thats the best I can say. He doesnt get it, but I feel better. He keeps saying that he feels like there is more Im not telling him. I dont know what else to say though.
He wont be going out tonight, he has decided to work at the fire/ems building and pull his duty.
Probably going to go to town tonight. Need some retail therapy! lol, maybe it will help me feel better.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
