F#cking hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life.
Totally understand that. Remember what worked. Stay detached - no expectations. This isn't the final play, lot's of time for you. Add a little mystery, have fun at the 5k meet some new people.
Once you get in the zone and you see it playing out in front of you you will relax. The playbook works, plus you know what the other team is going to run. Be prepared for spew as well. Ain't this fun.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
