I am feeling very depressed about my situation. yesterday was ow birthday and Im sure my h took her out for dinner like he use to do for me. I havnt spoken to him in 5 wks except for once. It seems like he gets more involved with her when I don't call him. I feel like things are going from bad to worse. His mother is in the hospital for pneumonia again she is 81. I think it is because of the stress of what h is doing to our family. H is living with his mother and ow always goes to MIL house. I sent flowers to mil yesterday from me and my son I signed it 'love" i wish i hadnt put love though. We were not on very good terms because she blamed me for husbands affair. I fell like calling h and telling him how we want him to come home to his family, that we miss him and love him. I cant take this anymore. I think they are planning on getting married and it kills me. I joined this forum in 2007, h was home 2 yrs out of the 4 but gone the last 8 mos..
