WAW 20 years and wants out

[gutwrenching]

You need to stop pushing for MC right now. You've made it known, made it clear, and if/when she is ready, she will let you know and will go. It doesn't sound like she is committed enough right now.

You constantly asking her about MC will seem like pursuing and will push her away. Instead make her wonder why now that you are going to counselling that you have become such a great and different person. Create some mystery. Stop talking about it