Not sure where to start or end, WAW? - #3

[john28]

So interesting time today! My DB friends, I'm detached. Wow, this feels exhilarating.

We went to mediation, I was all business, she was all emotion. I didn't crack. I was happy to be getting through all off this crap with splitting everything up. It felt good to almost get it done. Probably one more week and we'll this all said and done.

W called to talk to S4, then I immidiatey got off the phone after she was done. Just like you guys said, and I wanted to. I didn't want to talk to her.

So guess what, she calls me at 9:30pm after her class and wants to chit chat. I don't. I'm just like whatever. I don't care anymore. I've nearly walked away. She is upset and crying on the phone and wants to know if I'm going pumpkin picking this weekend. I told her I didn't know yet, I'm having mixed emotions, but I would let her know.

This launched into her starting an R talk - about how she's done everything to try and be my friend and I don't want to be her friend anymore. Then, I laid the bomb on HER.

I told her I didn't want to work on this M anymore, or the R, and I frankly didn't want to be friends anymore. We've caused too much damage to each other and I didn't want anything to really do with her anymore. I would remain civil for the sake of our child, but I would prefer if we could just move on with our lives.

Of course, she blames me in this conversation for the reasons why we can't be together. Typical BS. I don't care. I'm beyond that. I want a real R and a real M now.

After she calmed down she kept asking me if I was going to be her friend. I told her that I had walked away, and didn't think that was possible anymore. Until now we wanted two different things from each other - not anymore. I'm gone. It's over.

She is VERY upset that she "can't be my friend". Whatever.

After we get off the phone, guess who calls me... awesome girl that met. I'm happy and cheerful on the phone. We end up talking for nearly an hour. At one point my W calls me, but I don't click over - just let it go. I'm still talking to this other person.

Well, after I get off the phone I see that W has called and sent text for me to call her. I break, I know, and I do. I call her back. Guess what?

She asks why I didn't pick up the phone... I tell her I was busy. She then launches into this sobbing and crying and stuff and I ask what is going on with you. She says that she drove up to my house and she called me and I wouldn't answer her. What the hell? I ask why. She says it's because she wants to be friends and wanted to fix this.

Bwaaaahaha. Really, I'm laughing right now. I'm so cold it's not funny.