Jennifer, I hope that one of the MLC vets could chime in on your thread.
Me too!
Thanks for making me smile Eric. I do believe I am doing the right thing, the way I am handling all of this. I know I am a strong person - I've been through alot in my life and always make it through - a better, wiser, more insightful person.
But dang...can't I have a little bit of a break? lol! Does something always have to go wrong?
I asked myself your question - WHO am I standing for? And at this moment, I don't even feel like I am standing so-to-speak. I honestly don't know what I am doing other than continuing on with my life, remaining the rock and the constant for my children.
My eyes have opened up to alot of things. I look around our home and I can't tell you how many projects or things that were started that are not 100% complete. It seems that it's a normal thing for my H and I am realizing that I can't stand it! He doesn't finish ANYTHING to completion. You would think it's insane if I wrote the list - there is so much SH%T unfinished EVERYWHERE in this house. It's crazy! And with how much he is into his MMA, I am so much more aware looking around the house now, taking notice of how many books upon books, upon equipment, stuff upon stuff upon stuff that my H has bought over the past 2 years and it's all just sitting there. He still practices 4-5 times a week, but he doesn't use any of this STUFF. He has so much STUFF.
So I began relating that to our relationship. He is unable to finish anything to completion in his life, including his marriage! Not that a marriage can be completed, but I think you know what I mean. He got to 90% and decided to bail. Just like all of the other STUFF.
So, the other day, one of the things that was never completed, I took care of myself. I said to myself "why do we not have knobs and handles on our cabinets and drawers in our 2 year old kitchen island?" Because H said he had to measure the depth of the drawers for the right screws...and he NEVER did. So I went out to Lowes and bought the damn knobs and handles myself! I put the knobs on the cabinets but I do have to go back to Lowes to get longer screws for the drawer handles. Like seriously, how difficult was that to complete? Not difficult at all. In fact, super easy! I am going to start making my way around the house and I am going to finish what I can!
That turned into a long rant...thanks for listening/reading if you got this far!
