Sweetie, you will not lose your son. You are his mom - always and forever. And as his mom, you want him to have his father in his life.
Your son is going to be going through all sorts of emotions over time. He is going to be looking to you. If you are ok, he will be, too. Show him the way, IB.
Only you have the power to get unstuck. As much as we all want it for you, it is you who needs to do it.
What are you afraid would happen if you let your h go?
IB, love him enough to do that.
And love yourself enough to want the best for you and him.
You can change you. You have to want it.
When or if he looks towards you, show him the best IB there is.
You deserve to be happy, honey. You do.
Keep moving forward on the journey. Take one thing. Just one thing that you would like to change. Work on changing it.
Go out and buy yourself a new outfit. Go get a new hair style.
