I know A - I keep reminding myself that - the mind hears the heart doesn't.

I continue to be dark from h for healing purposes. Quite honestly it is still too painful for me to hear from him, let alone see him. I'm not sure if I'm avoiding him and staying stuck or if I am really trying to trust myself and give myself time to heal. I wish I had a better handle on things.

I am sorry friends - I feel as if I have been coming to this board recently and purging depression rather than productively working through things.

I have to figure myself out! Eric asks for 3 things I've always wanted to do that I could maybe do in the next 3 months...how sad is it that I draw a complete blank! Am I an empty shell of a woman? Is there no substance here? I've always thought I had substance because I LOVED being a wife and mother. I've never thought about being/doing ANYTHING else. ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I can't stand these feelings!!!

M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years
Ds-24,22/S-18
D - 3/11
A Day at a Time