Thanks everyone. I cant file for divorce myself in Ontario. I have to prove adultery or abuse or wait a year and she still can contest it. She has contested it to date, as I have filed.
I wont text either anymore, it gets me no where. I am focusing on me though. I have lost a lot of weight, I am in better physical condition then High school, I dress much better, always take pride in my appearance and i spend every moment I can with my children. I am new and improved. I have been out casually dating and to be honest, I just dont have my heart in it, so I have stopped. Its just not for me.
This whole situation is just a little crazy, my MIL is wanting her daughter home, and this gets put onto me. I have told her before that I cant talk about it and that it isnt my decision.Just doesnt make it any easier.