My oldest son came down to see the play I was in and stayed overnight. We had a fun conversation and I gave him his graduation present (the one step below the current iPhone). He said he'd never seen my email but our rapport seemed much better and more upbeat. He called two days later, saying how in love he was with the iPhone and that he was getting his own plan. When I received a text from Verizon saying that phone line had been removed, a tear came to my eye.. one of those maternal heartstrings being plucked out. I didn't expect that.
I lowered the price of the house dramatically, got a really low bid and am in negotiations. Of course I flipped out initially, was obstinate about not going much lower. Now I'm feeling a little more flexible. Change, especially big change and making decisions alone scare the daylights out of me. I also confirmed that I can afford a mortgage and buy a nice enough condo. I'm reminding myself, simpler is better. And I really don't want to spend another cold winter in this house with the heat down so low.
Being in the play was great.. getting me out of myself and around other people. I did a great job, had an incredible time, and performed before more than a thousand people by the time the show closed. Making friends and having the cast over helped reawaken the fun of being social.
I'm trying to move forward with this momentum.. even though I'm so nervous about trying to find a job. I seem to prefer fretting over what I should do rather than actually DOING it. Sheesh.
I made sort of a new 'friend' today while talking to a tech with my financial institution. We were having fun chatting during the conversation, exchanged emails and found each other on Facebook. We both passed the initial impression criteria. I warned him if he looked like a guy who'd hammer nails in his ears I wasn't going any farther. It was fun to feel a 'tingle' and somewhat reassuring to be a bit of a distance away. It felt good to laugh. I was the one who mentioned I'd like to meet him (gasp!). He gave me his email address. I gave him mine and said it was up to him to contact me. A first.. well... a first in quite a long time.
I also went to a Reiki share evening with a new friend. Folks who know Reiki share their energy, working on each other. I did the Soft Touch massage (not Reiki, but another type of energy work). The woman who was running the share, a Reiki master, was moved by how much compassion and love just ooze from me when I was working on other people. Another interesting thing about working on healthy people (rather than folks in the ICU) is how different the energy feels. It's much calmer.
My mother in law took a fall, is in a lot of pain but is being well cared for. I think I'm going to go see her this weekend and see if the kids (who may be coming down this weekend) would want to go see her, too. She's 93 and something like that (especially since she's in so much pain) can be very taxing to her system. I have this whole fear of people I love dying so am extra motivated to getting up there.
