There are so many perspectives.......different kinds of pain. I am so sorry for your loss and can't imagine what you must be going through on top of what IS. I know that there are times when you REALLY want your H back - the H before the alien attack - to comfort you and tell you it will all be ok - I've been there too. Pull your kids to you, find comfort in what you can, and lean on anyone you can (including those LBS'ers here that understand)to help you through.
Many(((((hugs)))) - Di an a mo
"Do not look back in anger or forward in fear, but around in awareness." - James Thurber
