Ahhh....I know I should be updating here, but NOTHING ever happens! Kids go to school, don't do their homework, teachers call, the house gets cleaned, laundry gets done, appointments are kept...life goes on.
2 weeks ago, my brother was killed in a hit and run accident. My family is devastated. Our hearts are broken and, again, I try to live with another hole in my heart.
H was predictably in MLC selfish mode. I blasted him for not staying with the kids while I went to Chicago to be by brother's side. I left the older girls alone and took DS13 with me.
H did take the girls for dinner a couple of times, and spent a day at the house, fixing little things. He actually made arrangements to have the garage door fixed, rather than the old telling me who to call. Since i returned home, he has been kinda pesty, contacting me multiple times a day over small things. He has been to the house more in the last week than in the last 9 months combined. He is coming today to replace his brake pads.
Yesterday, he was talking about selling some inventory and said, "or you could get a job." I replied with a nonchalant "I will not get a job to support your philandering." I didn't wait for a response, and left the room.
He is trying to team up to get me to work on finding ways to save $. If we were partners, I would do anything to alleviate the stress and pressure he is under financially. Now though, I feel it is his problem, just as he feels the kids and their issues are mine alone.
In this touch and go, I am calm, confident, and really do not care what he is up to (mostly, just observing). FOR REAL. No as if at the moment. I am there.
He is gone. I find his presence and contact annoying. I am ok. I am dealing with a different kind of grief, and what is going on in my life has nothing to do with him.
"If you strike me down, I will become more powerful than you can possibly imagine!" 1st thread
