Why do I want a man who doesn't want me? Or have any love left for me? ugh
Here's where you need to be brutally honest. He might, might have feelings for you still. Hidden by the pain he's feeling, but they might still be there. Or they might be nuked. And though it's a romantic Hollywood notion that you can "win him back," it's BS. Don't kid yourself into believing it. He either is hiding his feelings because of pain, or has lost them, maybe for good.
Either way, you can't change his feelings at all. Only he can. You can grow from this turmoil by learning communication skills that will serve you well in future relationships, by working on your self-esteem so you stand up for yourself and your needs.
Once he gets over his hurt and anger, he might realize his role in what happened. The mistakes he made. That's when you would have a chance for him to initiate contact with you. That's when you would make a heartfelt apology.
I'm a firm believer that you learn more about a person by how they handle a crisis. This is your test (and his). How will you handle yourself? You can handle this.
