After our second mediation session we were walking to the car and STBXW said "I know this isn't what you want. I'm sorry." I took a step towards her and I stopped myself and didn't say a word. She said "I'm sorry" again and I turned and walked to the car.
I remember you posting this on your own thread and it is a story that has always haunted me. ((CTH))
Originally Posted By: sandycay
Sol~ it wouldn't have changed a thing except keep on giving you bread crumbs and it causes you to not move on with your life in a healthy way.
Ya you are probably right. Sometimes it's good to hear it from a 3rd party. What more could I do right? I asked if there was anything else that could be done and said I didn't want D. No regrets, right? Eh, I vacillate too much. Oh and I'm studying n ursing, btw.
Well the last time I went on FB (last time, promise) I noticed that girl I suspect is the one who he slept with has a boyf (which he said she did at the time she f-cked him). Anyway stbx said the incident happened on a night he randomly met her in Dec and I noticed they've been friends since about Nov-ish or before. And she is also friends with his good friend (the one who's house they all f-cked at). I don't know if she's the girl but my BS meter is going off.
Sigh. I wonder when I will be over this. I wonder if his sleeping with someone else is going to affect any future relationship I have. I hate to admit but I feel insecure in a way after learning of what he told me. I don't know why he told me since he wanted a D anyway. Why tell me? It was like the last twist of the knife in my heart.
He said he would never be happy (while telling me he wants a D). That makes no sense. WTF does that mean? Reminds me of that Sheryl Crowe song.. If it makes you happy--it can't be that bad..... I feel like I wasted so much time on someone who could just cut strings and walk away like we never even happened. A small blip on his journey to wherever he is going...It pains me to think I meant so little to him.
