A new beginning to an end

[ClingingToHope]

I've told STBXW not to call unless it's something about the girls that has to be taken care of that day.

IMO, you handled the call after court just fine. He was just looking for you to make it easy on him.

After our second mediation session we were walking to the car and STBXW said "I know this isn't what you want. I'm sorry." I took a step towards her and I stopped myself and didn't say a word. She said "I'm sorry" again and I turned and walked to the car.

I think she was looking for me to say something like "it's OK" or to give her a hug ... something to ease her guilt.

I know I can't carry around the hurt and anger forever. Read the lyrics to Don Henley's "Heart of the Matter." I have to get to forgiveness someday.

But someday is a long way off. Right now, I have to survive and thrive and hopefully along the way I'll reach forgiveness.