You're right. None of this was new. The confirmation just hurt so much. I always think of people as inherently good I guess because I think of myself as a good person. It makes me naive and overly-optimistic often. The SIL is a real snake and I have known this... just wanted to be wrong.
The office politics are the WORST and I know it will get even more so before it gets better. Trying to mentally prepare for my generalized response once more people start asking.
You all being here for me is helping so much. I can't imagine not having this outlet or the friends in my life right now. I even keep thinking so much about God... weird, I would have considered myself agnostic or atheist if asked.
Life is changing for me in many ways. The thing that is also helpful is that I get to truly start over with my life in 40 weeks... I will be done with my training and will leave the state. It is slightly gratifying knowing that he doesn't get to do that any time soon and he will have to be in the same setting when he one day remembers what he lost. I won't be known as Dr. XXX, so-and-so's wife... just Dr. XXX!
(Formerly blgp) Me-35 H-33 Married 4 yrs Together 9 yrs "Bomb" 8/1/10 Separated 8/6/10 D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11
"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."
