I understand what you are saying, but I think she has been fairly good here. She could have just gone and left totally stuck, but she has looked into it and provided me with a solution were I am no worse off?
Yes her name is on the mortgage but she doesn't earn enough to pay it and I have always paid the mortgage, so it's no great shakes at the moment, I am being strong by keeping hold of the house, it is still the kids "home" as far as I am concerned, and if the rental she has goes wrong, they have a base which I provide.
I have really good moments were everything looks positive and I feel positive, then I'm hit by reality and I feel totally lost without them with me.
I genuinely feel that we will get back together, we love each other too much, we had a deep loving relationship, we adored each other, but life's hassles got in the way and we lost each other?
We couldn't keep our hands off each other even after being together for 15 years, but then it all went sour, mainly due to me, with stress, depression and anger.
I think the break is positive as the true feelings are still there, they are just deeply buried behind a wall that she has built as protection.
I just need to look after me, show her the changes are real and lasting and I think it will all fall back into place, if it doesn't I will be a better person for this experience.
I feel better already by just typing that down!
I have nobody to talk to about this but you guys, thanks for listening
