CTH - no, we don't have kids. I get what you're saying but I don't think going dark is easy for anyone.
On another note, I've never been deep sea diving, but I imagine this must be what it feels like when you come out of the water too fast - Mrs. A emerging from the deep sea of denial, that is. I have the denial bends.
I am feeling like crap, with physical ailments that I've come to recognize as symptoms of depression because I've had the same thing before.
I don't know what will happen with Mr. A and me in the future, but we've turned a corner and it's taken me to a dark place. I can't hold out hope any longer that Mr. A and I will reunite and later be able to view this time as just a very rough patch.
I've been hoping for that since Mr. A left in April 2009, which is why I've continued to wear my wedding ring and have been so reluctant to tell people (e.g., most of my coworkers) what's been going on.
Now I'm finally beginning to come out and it's hard.
