It's still so hard some days...

[old theotherhalf]

Hi all old DB friends. It's funny that I actually came here to just "check" in. Today is the anniversary of my x father in laws passing, 17 years ago today. I guess what better way to vent then to come here where some might understand my feelings. I've thought of "Dad" and my ex all day today. I want to send Ex a text or something to let him know that I'm thinking of him today and that I remember but sooo much has happened that I know that it's probably a bad idea. The last contact I had with Ex was a couple of weeks ago and it was bad, over money. He's still cruel and mean and selfish and I really do not want anything to do with him.
BUT, I do still miss my freind, my husband. Does that make any sense?