That is crazy mind reading and fortune telling from your IC.
He may or may not open the door. If you live the sitch acting "as if" the door is forever shut, a set of bad outcomes is more likely. If you ACCEPT that it may be shut forever, but WORK towards the possibility that it might be opened (Stockdale paradox), then a different set of interactions may follow.
This is what I'm working on. Living in a way that if he were to change his mind, my door is still open for reconciliation. No running around, no affairs, emotional or otherwise. Just obsessing and worrying and hoping that we can work this out someday. Oh and trying to do things right until then.
